{"product_id":"the-burn-journals-isbn-9781400096428","title":"The Burn Journals","description":"\u003cp\u003e\u003cb\u003eFans of \u003ci\u003eThirteen Reasons Why, Running with Scissors, \u003c\/i\u003eand\u003ci\u003e Girl, Interrupted \u003c\/i\u003ewill be entranced by this remarkable true story of teenage despair and recovery.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“[\u003ci\u003eThe Burn Journals\u003c\/i\u003e] describes a particular kind of youthful male desolation better than it has ever been described before, by anyone.”  —Andrew Solomon, author of \u003ci\u003eThe Noonday Demon\u003c\/i\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003eIn 1991, fourteen-year-old Brent Runyon came home from school, doused his  bathrobe in gasoline, put it on, and lit a match.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eHe suffered third-degree burns  over 85% of his body and spent the next year recovering in hospitals and rehab facilities.  During that year of physical recovery, Runyon began to question what he’d done, undertaking  the complicated journey from near-death back to high school, and from suicide back  to the emotional mainstream of life.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e“[\u003ci\u003eThe Burn Journals\u003c\/i\u003e] describes a particular kind of youthful male desolation better  than it has ever been described before, by anyone.”  —Andrew Solomon, author of \u003ci\u003eThe  Noonday Demon\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e“A fascinating account of the mending of a body and mind, told with  the simple and honest sensibility of someone too young to have endured so much.”  —Arthur Golden, author of \u003ci\u003eMemoirs of a Geisha\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\"Runyon has, perhaps, written the  defining book of a new genre, one that gazes...unflinchingly at boys on the emotional  edge.\" —\u003ci\u003eBooklist\u003c\/i\u003e (starred review)\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\"A taut, chilling account of the author's attempt  to commit suicide...a must-read for teenagers struggling with self-doubt.\" —\u003ci\u003eThe Denver  Post\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e“An excruciating, brilliant book...WOW.” —A.M. Homes, author of \u003ci\u003eThings You  Should Know\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/p\u003eBRENT RUNYON is a writer and regular contributor to public radio programs, including \u003ci\u003eThis American Life,\u003c\/i\u003e where portions of his award-winning memoir, \u003ci\u003eThe Burn Journals,\u003c\/i\u003e first aired. \u003ci\u003eBooklist\u003c\/i\u003e praised \u003ci\u003eThe Burn Journals\u003c\/i\u003e as “the defining book of a new genre, one that gazes unflinchingly at boys on the emotional edge.” In his novels \u003ci\u003eMaybe\u003c\/i\u003e and \u003ci\u003eSurface Tension,\u003c\/i\u003e he retains that raw honesty. Mr. Runyon lives on Cape Cod, Massachusetts.When seventh period is finally over, I run to my locker and put all my books inside. I won’t need them anymore. I grab my lock-picking set and a spare Ace of Spades that I have lying around.\u003cbr\u003eAt the end of the hallway, I can see Stephen talking to Megan, the girl we both have a crush on. I walk up to them and say hi. She smiles at me and I try to smile back. He looks a little suspicious.\u003cbr\u003eI don’t really want to say anything, I don’t want to tell them what I’m going to do. I hand him the Ace of Spades and say, “Good-bye,” and I walk away. I hope they’ll be happy together.\u003cbr\u003eI see my friend Jake at his locker and give him the lock-picking set. “Use them wisely,” I say, and head toward the bus.\u003cbr\u003eLaura walks with me down D hall. She says, “Hey, I heard you set that fire in gym class.”\u003cbr\u003e“Yeah.”\u003cbr\u003e“What are you going to do?”\u003cbr\u003e“I’m going to set myself on fire.” She stops at her locker, and I keep walking.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cu\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/u\u003eOn the bus ride home, I sit by myself. I lean my head against the cold glass window and try not to think about all the stupid things I’ve done, all the bad things I’ve done, and all the pain I’ve caused everyone.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eMy brother is playing basketball outside the house when I get home. He’s shooting free throws.\u003cbr\u003eI rebound the ball for him and throw it back. I don’t want to take any shots. I tell him the whole story, about what I did and what they’re going to do to me. I don’t tell him what I’m going to do to myself.\u003cbr\u003eWhen I’m done talking, he says, “That sucks,” and I go inside the house. I don’t have to write a note anymore. Craig knows everything.\u003cbr\u003eI walk out to the shed to get the gas can. I bring it inside to the bathroom at the top of the stairs because that’s the room with the most locks. I go back downstairs and get the matches from the kitchen.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eI take off all my clothes and put on the pair of red boxers with glow-in-the-dark lips that my mom bought for me at the mall last weekend. I bring my bathrobe into the shower and I pour the gasoline all over it. The gas can is only about a quarter full, but it seems like enough.\u003cbr\u003eI step into the bathtub and I put the bathrobe over my shoulders. It’s wet and heavy, but there’s something kind of comforting about the smell, like going on a long car trip. I hold the box of matches out in front of me in my left hand.\u003cbr\u003eI take out a strike-anywhere match and hold it against the box.\u003cbr\u003eShould I do it?\u003cbr\u003eYes. Do it.\u003cbr\u003eI strike the match, but it doesn’t light. Try again.\u003cbr\u003eI light the match. Nothing happens. I bring it closer to my wrist and then it goes up, all over me, eating through me everywhere. I can’t breathe. I’m screaming, “Craig! Craig!”\u003cbr\u003eI fall down. I’m going to die. I’m going to find out what death is like. I’m going to know. But nothing’s happening.\u003cbr\u003eThis hurts too much. I need to stop it. I need to get up. I stand. I don’t know how I stand, but I do, and I turn on the shower. I’m breathing water and smoke. I unlock the door and open it. My hand is all black. I walk out. There’s Craig with Rusty, our dog, next to him. They have the same expression on their faces.\u003cbr\u003eCraig yells something and runs downstairs. I think he’s calling 911. I’m following him. He hands me the phone and runs off. There’s a woman on the phone asking me questions. I try to tell her what’s happened, but my voice sounds choked and brittle. There’s something wrong with my voice.\u003cbr\u003eThe woman on the phone says the fire trucks and ambulances are on their way. Somehow she knows my address. Craig is gone now, gone to get Mom, and Rusty is hiding somewhere. Smoke is coming from the bathroom upstairs and I can see that the whole room has turned black. I look down and see my flesh is charred and flaking and the glow-in-the-dark boxer shorts are burnt into my skin.\u003cbr\u003eThe woman on the phone says everything is going to be all right, and I believe her. She has a nice voice. She keeps asking me if I’m still on fire and I say, “I don’t think so.”\u003cbr\u003eI’m walking around the kitchen, waiting for the ambulance to come. I can see my reflection in the microwave. Where’s my hair? Where did my hair go? Is that my face?\u003cbr\u003eWe used to put marshmallows in the microwave. We used to watch them get bigger and bigger and then shrink down.\u003cbr\u003e“Oh God, just tell them to get here, just tell them to get here, okay?”\u003cbr\u003eShe says, “It’s okay. They’re coming. They’re almost there.”\u003cbr\u003e“I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry.”\u003cbr\u003e“It’s okay, that’s okay.”\u003cbr\u003eI can hear the sirens in the distance now.\u003cbr\u003eI say, “I want to lie down. I’m going to lie down.” It hurts to talk. I think there’s something wrong in my throat.\u003cbr\u003e“You can’t lie down.”\u003cbr\u003e“But I have to.”\u003cbr\u003e“Okay, you can lie down.”\u003cbr\u003eThe men are here. The firemen are here. They’re putting me on a plastic sheet. They say I’m going to be okay. One of them puts something over my face. That feels good. That feels so good. The cold air feels so good going into my lungs.\u003cbr\u003eWhat are they talking about? What are they saying? They’re giving me a shot. They say it’s going to make the pain go away. Make the pain go away.\u003cbr\u003eI’m looking at the faces of all the men who are gathered around me. Their eyes are so blue and so clear.\u003cbr\u003eI turn my head and see Craig in the front hall. He’s yelling and punching the walls. He’s angry.\u003cbr\u003eAnd my mom is here, and she’s smiling and saying she loves me, and her eyes, which are green like my eyes, are the most beautiful things I’ve ever seen.","brand":"Vintage","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":46301790208229,"sku":"NP9781400096428","price":18.0,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":false}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/1842\/7735\/files\/9781400096428.jpg?v=1767738563","url":"https:\/\/k12savings.com\/products\/the-burn-journals-isbn-9781400096428","provider":"K12savings","version":"1.0","type":"link"}