{"product_id":"the-book-of-longings-isbn-9780525429760","title":"The Book of Longings","description":"\u003cb\u003e\u003cb\u003e“An extraordinary novel . . . a triumph of insight and storytelling.” —Associated Press\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003e“\u003c\/b\u003eA true masterpiece.\u003cb\u003e” —Glennon Doyle, author of \u003ci\u003eUntamed\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e \u003cb\u003eAn extraordinary story set in the first century about a woman who finds her voice and her destiny, from the celebrated number one \u003ci\u003eNew York Times \u003c\/i\u003ebestselling author of \u003ci\u003eThe Secret Life of Bees\u003c\/i\u003e and \u003ci\u003eThe Invention of Wings\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eIn her mesmerizing fourth work of fiction, Sue Monk Kidd takes an audacious approach to history and brings her acclaimed narrative gifts to imagine the story of a young woman named Ana. Raised in a wealthy family with ties to the ruler of Galilee, she is rebellious and ambitious, with a brilliant mind and a daring spirit. She engages in furtive scholarly pursuits and writes narratives about neglected and silenced women. Ana is expected to marry an older widower, a prospect that horrifies her. An encounter with eighteen-year-old Jesus changes everything.  \u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eTheir marriage evolves with love and conflict, humor and pathos in Nazareth, where Ana makes a home with Jesus, his brothers, and their mother, Mary. Ana's pent-up longings intensify amid the turbulent resistance to Rome's occupation of Israel, partially led by her brother, Judas. She is sustained by her fearless aunt Yaltha, who harbors a compelling secret. When Ana commits a brazen act that puts her in peril, she flees to Alexandria, where startling revelations and greater dangers unfold, and she finds refuge in unexpected surroundings. Ana determines her fate during a stunning convergence of events considered among the most impactful in human history. \u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e Grounded in meticulous research and written with a reverential approach to Jesus's life that focuses on his humanity, \u003ci\u003eThe Book of Longings \u003c\/i\u003eis an inspiring, unforgettable account of one woman's bold struggle to realize the passion and potential inside her, while living in a time, place and culture devised to silence her. It is a triumph of storytelling both timely and timeless, from a masterful writer at the height of her powers.\u003cb\u003e\u003cu\u003ePraise for \u003ci\u003eThe Book of Longings\u003c\/i\u003e:\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/u\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“I kept having to close this novel and breathe deeply, again and again. A radical re­imagining of the New Testament that reflects on women's longing and silencing and awakening, it is a true masterpiece.”\u003cb\u003e —Glennon Doyle, author of \u003ci\u003eUntamed\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“[Kidd’s] painstaking research and artful crafting of setting and character ensures that \u003ci\u003eThe Book of Longings\u003c\/i\u003e is not just an extraordinary novel, but one with lasting power . . . [her] brilliance shines through on so many levels, but not the least in her masterful, reverential approach to capturing Jesus of Nazareth as a fully human young man . . . [\u003ci\u003eThe Book of Longings\u003c\/i\u003e] is an epic masterpiece that is a triumph of insight and storytelling.” \u003cb\u003e—Associated Press\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Well-researched and boldly plotted, this masterful novel brings a lovely character to life.” \u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003ePeople\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Kidd’s bold narrative revisionism allows her protagonist to be in every respect the equal of her husband while posing this question: How would Western culture be different if men and women had grown in appreciation of each other’s spirit? It’s not such a leap—the gospels portray Jesus gently championing women.” \u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003eO, The Oprah Magazine\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“We promise you’ve never read anything like this . . . This work of historical fiction gives a feminist retelling to the stories at the heart of Catholicism, yet stays grounded in research and respect. Even after you finish, you’ll be thinking about it for days.” \u003cb\u003e—KatieCouric.com\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e “[A] book-club-friendly novel . . . Ana’s gentle husband is Jesus of Nazareth. Her cherished big brother is Judas, Jesus’s firebrand friend. These guys, so familiar, so human, are the hook that draws us in. What keeps us there, though, is the vividness of the world that Kidd conjures, peopling it with boldface names from the New Testament and freshly invented characters she imagines just as fully — Ana, our fictional narrator, principal among them.” \u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003eThe Boston Globe\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Sue Monk Kidd brings to life a spirited, and spiritually aware, young woman who must come to terms with her own heartfelt desires and ambitions . . . Other novelists have imagined the human side of Jesus, and some have envisioned him as married. But no other writer has fleshed out a partner who can stand on her own, who is intellectually and spiritually well matched with Jesus . . . Kidd’s research into first-century Jewish life, along with her vivid descriptions of the villages and terrain, make Ana’s story come alive.” \u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003eThe Christian Science Monitor\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e “For fans of historical novels, particularly [...] \u003ci\u003eThe Red Tent\u003c\/i\u003e, or, more recently, \u003ci\u003eNaamah \u003c\/i\u003e. . . Kidd uses her unexpected narrator to reveal new perspectives on an endlessly parsed era.” \u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003eThe Washington Post\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Imaginative . . . charts a young woman’s struggle to confront the ways in which society dictates what she can and cannot do.” \u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003eTime\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“A master of literary women’s fiction, Kidd always strikes a chord with her strong, feisty female protagonists . . . [\u003ci\u003eThe Book of Longings\u003c\/i\u003e] is written with reverence and strives for historical accuracy . . . it's an engaging story about a young woman defying the odds to make her voice heard, a story that remains relevant today . . . [and] underscore[s] what’s lost when one group—be it one gender, race or religion—gets to write the history for all.” \u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003eThe Atlanta Journal-Constitution\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003ci\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/i\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Ana is the vehicle through which we experience the ancient caste system of class, male supremacy and the eternal power of seeking revenge . . . We know where this story is heading all along, but never suspect the unexpected routes . . . \u003ci\u003eThe Book of Longings \u003c\/i\u003emakes you think, and isn’t that often a leap of faith?” \u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003eStar-Tribune\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003ci\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/i\u003e“A well-researched novel about a young Jewish woman, who fights against cultural norms to realize the passion and potential inside her.” \u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003eGood Morning America\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e “Sue Monk Kidd skips historians’ 2,000-year-old ‘Did Jesus marry?’ debate, imagines he did, and asks, ‘So what would his wife have been like?’ Inserting Ana into biblical stories, Kidd crafts a surprising, absorbing narrative.” \u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003eReal Simple\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“The latest from Sue Monk Kidd introduces us to Ana, a courageous, intelligent woman who marries Jesus long before his public ministry begins. Based on meticulous historical research, this is a humanizing look at Jesus the man, as well as an inspiring story of a strong woman living in a society bent on her silence.” \u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003eGood Housekeeping\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Despite its setting in ancient Judea, this imaginative novel feels downright contemporary, characterized as it is by one strong-willed woman’s awakening to the indomitable power of her own spirit.” \u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003eEsquire\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“\u003ci\u003eThe Book of Longings\u003c\/i\u003e demonstrates a welcomed maturity and mastery of historical fiction, even as [Kidd] takes on a retelling of the greatest story ever told . . . she gives nuance and depth to the political realities that made Jesus’ teachings so provocative, and to the patriarchal systems that make characters like Ana’s fabulously fearless aunt Yaltha, her guiding star, so heroic . . . Let it be said that Kidd, like her main character, is indeed ‘a voice.’” —\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003eThe Post and Courier \u003c\/i\u003e(Charleston)\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Brilliant . . . It’s the story we all know, but from a new angle, with all the familiar characters brought to vivid life . . . Brava!” \u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003eThe Daily Mail \u003c\/i\u003e(London)\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003ci\u003e \u003c\/i\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“The novel’s evocation of life in Galilee is fascinating, and clever, rebellious Ana is a memorable character.” \u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003eThe Times \u003c\/i\u003e(London)\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“A testament to the author’s talent for creating both compelling characters and intriguing story lines . . . Historical details of daily life in the Roman Empire, strong female characters, and richly imagined glimpses into the philosophical communities and libraries in Egypt . . . make this an excellent book club choice . . . Don’t shy away from this historical fiction page-turner thinking that it falls into the inspirational genre. The intensity, bravery, and strength of character of Ana . . . will inspire readers but in a different way: to live authentically and remain true to oneself.” \u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003eLibrary Journal \u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“The beloved \u003ci\u003eThe Secret Life of Bees \u003c\/i\u003eauthor spins new gold from one of the greatest stories ever told . . . this is a deeply tender story of two outliers who find each other: a very human Jesus full of fire, yearnings and doubts about being the Messiah, and an even more fiery Ana (Jesus calls her “Little Thunder\"), who refuses the traditional role of women to find her own voice, and promote the voices of all women. Provocative, passionate and extremely moving, this is both a love story for the ages and a portrait of a woman way ahead of her biblical times.” \u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003eAARP The Magazine\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Richly imagined . . . Ana’s ambition and strong sense of justice make her a sympathetic character for modern readers . . . In addition to providing a woman-centered version of New Testament events, Kidd’s novel is also a vibrant portrait of a woman striving to preserve and celebrate women’s stories—her own and countless others.” \u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003ePublishers Weekly \u003c\/i\u003e(starred) \u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Kidd’s narrative, etched into the emotionally precise and tactile prose of Ana’s first-person voice . . . is not an attempt to rewrite history. Instead it’s an exploration of a triumphant, fierce spirit and the stories she aches to tell. There’s an exuberance to Ana that vibrates off every page, and that is a testament to Kidd’s gifts.” \u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003eBookPage \u003c\/i\u003e \u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“If you have been waiting for a book like \u003ci\u003eThe Red Tent\u003c\/i\u003e for the past twenty years, this is it. Give to fans of Anita Diamant and Marilynne Robinson.” \u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003eShelf Awareness\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“An engrossing, briskly paced story in an appealing voice . . . the message about the importance of kindness and the power of women’s voices should resonate strongly with today’s readers.” \u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003eBooklist\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“[A] novel that imagines the life of an unforgettable woman, written with reverence to the topic it covers. This intricate story is an epic journey, which fans of \u003ci\u003eThe Red Tent\u003c\/i\u003e will devour.”\u003cb\u003e —\u003ci\u003ePopSugar\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003eSue Monk Kidd's debut novel, \u003ci\u003eThe Secret Life of Bees\u003c\/i\u003e, spent more than one hundred weeks on the \u003ci\u003eNew York Times \u003c\/i\u003ebestseller list, has sold more than six million copies in the United States, was turned into both an award-winning major motion picture and a musical, and has been translated into thirty-six languages. Her second novel, \u003ci\u003eThe Mermaid Chair\u003c\/i\u003e, was a number one \u003ci\u003eNew York Times\u003c\/i\u003e bestseller and was adapted into a television movie. Her third novel, \u003ci\u003eThe Invention of Wings\u003c\/i\u003e, an Oprah's Book Club 2.0 pick, was also a number one \u003ci\u003eNew York Times\u003c\/i\u003e bestseller. She is the author of several acclaimed memoirs, including \u003ci\u003eThe Dance of the Dissident Daughter\u003c\/i\u003e, her groundbreaking work on religion and feminism, as well as the \u003ci\u003eNew York Times \u003c\/i\u003ebestseller \u003ci\u003eTraveling with Pomegranates\u003c\/i\u003e, written with her daughter, Ann Kidd Taylor. She lives in North Carolina.\u003cp\u003ei.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eI am Ana. I was the wife of Jesus ben Joseph of Nazareth. I called him Beloved and he, laughing, called me Little Thunder. He said he heard rumblings inside me while I slept, a sound like thunder from far over the Nahal Zippori valley or even farther beyond the Jordan. I don't doubt he heard something. All my life, longings lived inside me, rising up like nocturnes to wail and sing through the night. That my husband bent his heart to mine on our thin straw mat and listened was the kindness I most loved in him. What he heard was my life begging to be born.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eii.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eMy testament begins in the fourteenth year of my life, the night my aunt led me to the flat roof of my father's grand house in Sepphoris, bearing a plump object wrapped in linen.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eI followed her up the ladder, eyeing the mysterious bundle, which was tied on her back as if it were a newborn baby, unable to guess what she secreted. She was humming a Hebrew song about Jacob's ladder, doing so rather loudly, and I worried the sound would tumble through the slit windows of the house and awaken my mother. She had forbidden us to go to the roof together, afraid Yaltha would fill my head with audacities.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eUnlike my mother, unlike every woman I knew, my aunt was educated. Her mind was an immense feral country that spilled its borders. She trespassed everywhere. She had come to us from Alexandria four months ago for reasons of which no one would speak. I'd not known my father had a sister until she'd appeared one day dressed in a plain, undyed tunic, her small body erect with pride, eyes glowering. My father didn't embrace her, nor did my mother. They gave her a servant's room that opened onto the upper courtyard, and they ignored my interrogations. Yaltha, too, avoided my questions. \"Your father made me swear not to speak of my past. He would rather you think I dropped from the sky in the manner of bird shit.\"\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eMother said Yaltha had an impudent mouth. For once, we were in agreement. My aunt's mouth was a wellspring of thrilling and unpredictable utterances. It was what I most loved about her.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eTonight was not the first time we'd sneaked to the roof after dark to escape prying ears. Huddled beneath the stars, my aunt had told me of Jewish girls in Alexandria who wrote on wooden tablets that contained multiple wax slates, contraptions I could scarcely imagine. She'd recounted stories of Jewish women there who led synagogues, studied with philosophers, wrote poetry, and owned houses. Egyptian queens. Female pharaohs. Great Goddesses.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eIf Jacob's ladder reached all the way to heaven, so, too, did ours.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eYaltha had lived no more than four and a half decades, but already her hands were becoming knotted and misshapen. Her skin lay in pleats on her cheeks and her right eye drooped as if wilted. Despite that, she moved nimbly up the rungs, a graceful climbing spider. I watched as she hoisted herself over the top rung onto the roof, the pouch on her back swinging to and fro.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eWe settled on grass mats, facing each other. It was the first day of the month of Tishri, but the cool fall rains had not yet come. The moon sat like a small fire on the hills. The sky, cloudless, black, full of embers. The smell of pita and smoke from cook fires drifted over the city. I burned with curiosity to know what she concealed in her bundle, but she gazed into the distance without speaking and I forced myself to wait.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eMy own audacities lay hidden inside a carved cedar chest in a corner of my room: scrolled papyri, parchments, and scraps of silk, all of which bore my writings. There were reed pens, a sharpening knife, a cypress writing board, vials of ink, an ivory palette, and a few precious pigments my father had brought from the palace. The pigments were mostly gone now, but theyÕd been luminous the day IÕd opened the lid for Yaltha.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eMy aunt and I had stood there gazing down at all that glory, neither of us speaking.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eShe reached into the chest and pulled out parchments and scrolls. Not long before she arrived, I'd begun writing down the stories of the matriarchs in the Scriptures. Listening to the rabbis, one would've thought the only figures worth mention in the whole of history were Abraham, Isaac, Jacob, and Joseph . . . David, Saul, Solomon . . . Moses, Moses, Moses. When I was finally able to read the Scriptures for myself, I discovered (behold!) there were women.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eTo be ignored, to be forgotten, this was the worst sadness of all. I swore an oath to set down their accomplishments and praise their flourishings, no matter how small. I would be a chronicler of lost stories. It was exactly the kind of boldness Mother despised.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eOn the day I opened the chest for Yaltha, I had completed the stories of Eve, Sarah, Rebekah, Rachel, Leah, Zilpah, Bilhah, and Esther. But there was so much remaining to be written-Judith, Dinah, Tamar, Miriam, Deborah, Ruth, Hannah, Bathsheba, Jezebel.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eTensed, almost breathless, I watched my aunt pore over my efforts.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\"It's as I thought,\" she said, her face candescent. \"You've been greatly blessed by God.\"\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eSuch words.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eUntil that moment I'd thought I was merely peculiar-a disturbance of nature. A misfit. A curse. I'd long been able to read and write, and I possessed unusual abilities to compose words into stories, to decipher languages and texts, to grasp hidden meanings, to hold opposing ideas in my head without conflict.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eMy father, Matthias, who was head scribe and counselor to our tetrarch, Herod Antipas, said my talents were better suited for prophets and messiahs, for men who parted seas, built temples, and conferred with God on mountaintops, or for that matter, any common circumcised male in Galilee. Only after I taught myself Hebrew and cajoled and pleaded did he allow me to read the Torah. Since the age of eight, I'd begged him for tutors to educate me, scrolls to study, papyrus to write on, and dyes to mix my own inks, and he'd often complied-whether out of awe or weakness or love, I couldn't say. My aspirations embarrassed him. When he couldn't subdue them, he made light of them. He liked to say the only boy in the family was a girl.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eA child as awkward as I required an explanation. My father suggested that while God was busy knitting me together in my mother's womb, he'd become distracted and mistakenly endowed me with gifts destined for some poor baby boy. I don't know if he realized how affronting this must have been to God, at whose feet he laid the blunder.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eMy mother believed the fault lay with Lilith, a demon with the talons of an owl and the wings of a carrion bird who searched for newborn babies to murder, or in my instance, to defile with unnatural tendencies. I'd arrived in the world during a savage winter rain. The old women who delivered the babies refused to venture out even though my high-ranking father had sent for them. My distraught mother sat on her birthing chair with no one to relieve her pain or protect us from Lilith with the proper prayers and amulets, so it was left to her servant Shipra to bathe me in wine, water, salt, and olive oil, wrap me in swaddling bands, and tuck me into a cradle for Lilith to find.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eMy parents' stories found their way into the flesh of my flesh and the bone of my bone. It had not occurred to me that my abilities had been intended, that God had meant to bestow these blessings on me. On Ana, a girl with turbulent black curls and eyes the color of rainclouds.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eVoices floated from nearby rooftops. The wail of a child, a goat bleating. Finally, Yaltha reached behind her back for the bundle and unwrapped the linen cloth. She peeled away the layers slowly, her eyes alight, casting quick glances at me.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eShe lifted up the contents. A limestone bowl, glowing and round, a perfect full moon. \"I brought it with me from Alexandria. I wish you to have it.\"\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eWhen she placed it in my hands, a quiver entered my body. I ran my palms over the smooth surface, the wide mouth, the milky whorls in the stone.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\"Do you know what an incantation bowl is?\" she asked.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eI shook my head. I only knew it must be something of great magnitude, something too perilous or wondrous to unveil anywhere except on the roof in the dark.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\"In Alexandria we women pray with them. We write our most secret prayer inside them. Like this.\" She placed a finger inside the bowl and moved it in a spiraling line around the sides. \"Every day we sing the prayer. As we do, we turn the bowl in slow circles and the words wriggle to life and spin off toward heaven.\"\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eI gazed at it, unable to speak. A thing so resplendent, so fraught with hidden powers.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eShe said, \"At the bottom of the bowl, we draw an image of ourselves to make certain God knows to whom the petition belongs.\"\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eMy mouth parted. Surely she knew no devout Jew would look upon figures in human and animal form, much less create them. The second commandment forbade it. Thou shalt not make a graven image of anything living in heaven, or on the earth, or in the sea.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\"You must write your prayer in the bowl,\" my aunt told me. \"But take care what you ask, for you shall surely receive it.\"\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eI stared into the hollow of the vessel and for a moment it seemed like a firmament unto itself, the starry dome turned upside down.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eWhen I looked up, Yaltha's eyes were settled on me. She said, \"A man's holy of holies contains God's laws, but inside a woman's there are only longings.\" Then she tapped the flat bone over my heart and spoke the charge that caused something to flame up in my chest: \"Write what's inside here, inside your holy of holies.\"\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eLifting my hand, I touched the bone my aunt had just struck to life, blinking furiously to hold back a tumult of emotion.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eOur one true God dwelled inside the Holy of Holies in the Temple at Jerusalem, and I was sure it was impious to speak of a similar place existing inside humans, and worse still to suggest that yearnings inside girls like me had intimations of divinity. It was the most beautiful, wicked blasphemy I'd ever heard. I could not sleep that night for the ecstasy of it.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eMy bedstead was lifted off the floor on bronze legs, swathed in pillows dyed crimson and yellow, stuffed with beaten straw, feathers, coriander, and mint, and I lay there in all that softness and those scents long past the midnight hour composing my prayer in my head, struggling to compress the vastness of what I felt into words.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eRousing before dawn, I crept along the balcony that overhung the main floor, moving in bare feet without a lamp, stealing past the rooms where my family slept. Down the stone steps. Through the portico of the reception hall. I crossed the upper courtyard, measuring my steps as if walking on a field of pebbles, fearful of waking the servants who slept nearby.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eThe mikvah where we bathed in keeping with the laws of purity was enclosed in a dank room beneath the house and was accessible only from the lower courtyard. I descended, feeling my way along the stair wall. As the trickle of water in the conduit rose and the gloom faded, I made out the contours of the pool. I was adept at performing my ritual ablutions in the dark-I'd been coming to the mikvah since my first bleeding, as our religion required, but doing so at night, in private, for I'd not yet confessed my womanhood to my mother. For several months now I'd been burying my rags in the herb garden.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eThis time, though, I'd not come to the mikvah for reasons of womanhood, but to make myself ready to inscribe my bowl. To write down a prayer-this was a grievous and holy thing. The act itself of writing evoked powers, often divine, but sometimes unstable, that entered the letters and sent a mysterious animating force rippling through the ink. Did not a blessing carved on a talisman safeguard a newborn and a curse inscription protect a tomb?\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eI slipped off my robe and stood unclothed on the top step, though it was customary to enter in one's undergarments. I wished to be laid bare. I wished nothing between me and the water. I called out for God to make me clean so I might write my prayer with rightness of mind and heart. Then I stepped into the mikvah. I wriggled beneath the water like a fish and came up gasping.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eBack in my room I robed myself in a clean tunic. I gathered the incantation bowl and my writing implements and lit the oil lamps. Day was breaking. 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