{"product_id":"the-accidentisbn-9780385348454","title":"The Accident","description":"\u003cp\u003e\u003cb\u003eFrom the author of the \u003ci\u003eNew York Times\u003c\/i\u003e-bestselling and Edgar Award-winning \u003ci\u003eThe Expats\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e \u003cbr\u003eAs dawn approaches in New York, literary agent Isabel Reed is turning the final pages of a mysterious, anonymous manuscript, racing through the explosive revelations about powerful people, as well as long-hidden secrets about her own past. In Copenhagen, veteran CIA operative Hayden Gray, determined that this sweeping story be buried, is suddenly staring down the barrel of an unexpected gun. And in Zurich, the author himself is hiding in a shadowy expat life, trying to atone for a lifetime’s worth of lies and betrayals with publication of \u003ci\u003eThe Accident, \u003c\/i\u003ewhile always looking over his shoulder.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eOver the course of one long, desperate, increasingly perilous day, these lives collide as the book begins its dangerous march toward publication, toward saving or ruining careers and companies, placing everything at risk—and everyone in mortal peril.  The rich cast of characters—in publishing and film, politics and espionage—are all forced to confront the consequences of their ambitions, the schisms between their ideal selves and the people they actually became.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eThe action rockets around Europe and across America, with an intricate web of duplicities stretching back a quarter-century to a dark winding road in upstate New York, where the shocking truth about the accident itself is buried. \u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eGripping, sophisticated, layered, and impossible to put down, \u003ci\u003eThe Accident\u003c\/i\u003e proves once again that Chris Pavone is a true master of suspense.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003eSt. Louis Post-Dispatch \u003c\/i\u003eBest Books of 2014\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“[Pavone is] a reliable new must-read in the world of thrillers. . . . You will want to finish \u003ci\u003eThe Accident\u003c\/i\u003e at a nice, rapid clip to see how [the] pieces come together. . . . Unputdownable.” —\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003eThe New York Times\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e  \u003cbr\u003e “A taut, bookish thriller.” —\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003ePeople\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e \u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“If you like real nail-biters, this is the best one so far this year. . . . Couldn’t put the damn thing down.” \u003cb\u003e—Stephen King, on Twitter\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e  \u003cbr\u003e “Savvy. . . . [With] plenty of swift action and sudden twists.” —\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003eWall Street Journal\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e  \u003cbr\u003e “Smart and stylish. . . . Thrill-a-minute. . . . \u003ci\u003eThe Accident\u003c\/i\u003e never stumbles as it confidently and most entertainingly barrels forward toward shocking revelations and a bombshell of a finish.” \u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003e—Chicago Tribune\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e \u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003e \u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e “A must-read…gripping.”—\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003eUSA Today\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e  \u003cbr\u003e “Chris Pavone is the new best thing. \u003ci\u003eThe Accident\u003c\/i\u003e proves the promise of \u003ci\u003eThe Expats\u003c\/i\u003e. It is as intelligent and timely as it is relentless and gripping. Pavone is going to be around for a long time and now is the time to jump on the train.” —\u003cb\u003eMichael Connelly\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e  \u003cbr\u003e “A fast-paced, airport-ready thriller. . . . Pavone writes well about the politics of modern publishing.” —\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003eEntertainment Weekly\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e \u003cbr\u003e  \u003cbr\u003e “The thriller-of-the-year. \u003cb\u003e. . .\u003c\/b\u003e Pavone’s characters seem genuine, with some flaws in the good guys and some virtues in the bad guys.” —\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003eSt. Louis Post-Dispatch\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e  \u003cbr\u003e“Maximum enjoyment at maximum speed.”—\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003eDallas Morning News\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e “A sly globetrotting spy thriller that gives new meaning to publish or perish.” —\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003eFamily Circle\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e \u003cbr\u003e  \u003cbr\u003e “A propulsive A-train of a thrill ride and worthy successor to Pavone’s debut.” \u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003e—Los Angeles Times\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e  \u003cbr\u003e “A fast-paced, dangerous ride. . . . That intricate plot [propels you] forward, twisting and turning right up to its final, ultimately satisfying conclusion.” \u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003eFort Worth Star-Telegram\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e  \u003cbr\u003e “A clever, sophisticated mystery.”\u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003eMilwaukee Journal-Sentinel\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e  \u003cbr\u003e “[Pavone] has outdone himself with this amazing thriller. . . . Full of constant surprises [\u003ci\u003eThe Accident\u003c\/i\u003e] is jam-packed with everything from media moguls to conspiracies. This is a truly great read!” \u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003eSuspense Magazine\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e  \u003cbr\u003e “Tantalizing. . . . With terrific surprises and high-quality writing in this engaging thriller.”\u003cb\u003e —Associated Press \u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e  \u003cbr\u003e “Marvelous. . . . The deft plot globetrots and en route provides glamorous locales as well as twisty turns in suspense.” —\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003eNew York Daily News\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e  \u003cbr\u003e “A high-wire thriller featuring a Wolfe-ian cast of characters.” \u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003e—Vogue.com\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e  \u003cbr\u003e “[A] high-wire thriller. . . . The suspense is palpable.” \u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003ePublishers Weekly\u003c\/i\u003e (starred review)\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e  \u003cbr\u003e “Pavone’s plot twists tirelessly, shifting focus among a large cast of well-drawn characters. . . . many readers will read this one through the night.” \u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003eBooklist\u003c\/i\u003e (starred review)\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e  \u003cbr\u003e “[An] engaging thriller, driven by compelling portraits of desperate characters.” \u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003eLibrary Journal\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e  \u003cbr\u003e “Pavone knows the formula for a best-seller and keeps the reader turning the pages.”\u003cb\u003e —\u003ci\u003eKirkus\u003c\/i\u003e \u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e \u003cb\u003e \u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e “Chris Pavone's many fans will not be disappointed with \u003ci\u003eThe Accident\u003c\/i\u003e, his fast-paced, twisting, smart follow-up to \u003ci\u003eThe Expats\u003c\/i\u003e. Cleverly plotted, filled with surprises, a terrific read.” \u003cb\u003e—William Landay, \u003ci\u003eNew York Times\u003c\/i\u003e bestselling author of \u003ci\u003eDefending Jacob\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e  \u003cbr\u003e “The world of book publishing has never been more perilous or mesmerizing than in Chris Pavone’s dizzyingly good follow-up to \u003ci\u003eThe Expats\u003c\/i\u003e. The dark eruption of long-buried secrets, complex betrayals further snagged by sex and greed, and eleventh-hour desperate gambits for reinvention all propel a whirlwind story that will keep you up way past your bedtime. Crafty, stylish, \u003ci\u003esatisfying\u003c\/i\u003e.”  \u003cb\u003e—Paula McLain, \u003ci\u003eNew York Times\u003c\/i\u003e bestselling author of \u003ci\u003eThe Paris Wife\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e  \u003cbr\u003e “Clever, sophisticated, and propulsive.  I am constantly awed by Chris Pavone's writing.  He's already one of the best in the thriller business.” \u003cb\u003e—Joseph Finder, \u003ci\u003eNew York Times\u003c\/i\u003e bestselling author of \u003ci\u003eParanoia\u003c\/i\u003e and \u003ci\u003eSuspicion\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e  \u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cb\u003ePraise for \u003ci\u003eThe Expats\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e \u003cbr\u003e\"Sly. . . . Pavone strengthens this book with a string of head-spinning revelations in its last pages. . . . The tireless scheming of all four principals truly exceeds all sane expectations.” —\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003eThe New York Times\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Bombshell-a-minute. . . . Pavone creates a fascinating, complicated hero.” \u003cb\u003e—\u003ci\u003eEntertainment Weekly\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e \u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“A gripping spy drama and an artful study of the sometimes cat-and-mouse game of marriage.” —\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003eFamily Circle\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Smartly executed. . . . Pavone is full of sharp insights into the parallels between political espionage and marital duplicity. . . . Thoroughly captivating.” —\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003eThe New York Times Book Review\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e \u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Superb. . . . [Pavone] expertly draws readers along with well-timed clues and surprises. . . . An engineering marvel.” —\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003eRichmond Times-Dispatch\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e \u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Expertly and intricately plotted, with a story spiraling into disaster and a satisfyingly huge amount of double-crossing, \u003ci\u003eThe Expats\u003c\/i\u003e certainly doesn’t feel like a first novel. This is an impressively assured entry to the thriller scene.” —\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003eThe Guardian \u003c\/i\u003e(London)\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Refreshingly original. . . . Part Ludlum in the pacing, part Le Carré in the complexity of story and character, but mostly Chris Pavone. . . . A thriller so good that you wonder what other ideas [Pavone] has up his cloak, right alongside the obligatory dagger.” —\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003eThe Star-Ledger\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Amazing. . . . Impossible to put down. . . . Pavone invokes memories of the great writers of spy fiction of the past, and he has the chops to be mentioned with the best of them.” —\u003cb\u003eAssociated Press\u003c\/b\u003e \u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“A blast. . . . Pavone is spinning a fantastic tale with action that spans the globe.” —\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003eDallas Morning News\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e \u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Highly entertaining.” —\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003eMystery Scene\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e \u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Thoroughly enjoyable.” —\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003eSuspense\u003c\/i\u003e Magazine\u003c\/b\u003e \u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Hard to put down.” —\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003eSan Francisco Bay Guardian\u003c\/i\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e \u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Stunningly assured. . . . An intricate, suspenseful plot that is only resolved in the final pages.” —\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003eBooklist\u003c\/i\u003e (starred review)\u003c\/b\u003e \u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Brilliant, insanely clever, and delectably readable.” —\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003eLibrary Journal\u003c\/i\u003e (starred review)\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Meticulously plotted, psychologically complex. . . . The sheer amount of bombshell plot twists are nothing short of extraordinary, but it’s Pavone’s portrayal of Kate and her quest to find meaning in her charade of an existence that makes this book such a powerful read.” —\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003ePublishers Weekly\u003c\/i\u003e (starred review)\u003c\/b\u003e \u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Impressive. . . . With almost more double-crosses than a body can stand.” —\u003cb\u003e\u003ci\u003eKirkus\u003c\/i\u003e (starred review)\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Bristling with suspense and elegantly crafted, \u003ci\u003eThe Expats\u003c\/i\u003e introduces a compelling and powerful female protagonist you won't soon forget. Well done!” —\u003cb\u003ePatricia Cornwell\u003c\/b\u003e \u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“I often thought I was again reading the early works of Ken Follett, Frederick Forsyth, and Robert Ludlum. Smart, clever suspense, skillfully plotted, and a lot of fun to read.” —\u003cb\u003eJohn Grisham\u003c\/b\u003e \u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“One of the best-written spy thrillers I've ever read. . . . A riveting story of great-game deceptions wrapped inside the smaller deceptions of marriage. At moments horrifying, hilarious, and very wise, \u003ci\u003eThe Expats\u003c\/i\u003e has given Chris Pavone a permanent place on my short list of must-read authors.” —\u003cb\u003eOlen Steinhauer\u003c\/b\u003e \u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“A gem. Clever, suspenseful with a jet fueled story that rockets from one corner of the globe to another, it is never less than a thrill a minute. . . . An absolute winner!” —\u003cb\u003eChristopher Reich\u003c\/b\u003e \u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Spy stories need to budge over to make space for Kate Moore—mother, wife, expat and far more than she appears. I loved her.” —\u003cb\u003eRosamund Lupton\u003c\/b\u003e \u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Riveting. One of the most accomplished debuts of recent years: not just a worthy addition to the literature of espionage and betrayal, but a fine portrait of a marriage disintegrating under the pressure of secrets and lies.” —\u003cb\u003eJohn Connolly\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cp\u003eChris Pavone's novel \u003ci\u003eThe Expats\u003c\/i\u003e was a \u003ci\u003eNew York Times, USA Today,\u003c\/i\u003e and international bestseller, and winner of Edgar and Anthony awards for best first novel. Chris grew up in Brooklyn, graduated from Cornell, and was a book editor for nearly two decades, as well as an expat in Luxembourg, but now lives again in New York City with his wife and children. \u003ci\u003eThe Accident\u003c\/i\u003e is his second novel.\u003c\/p\u003eChapter 1\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eIt’s just before dawn when Isabel Reed turns the final sheet of paper. Halfway down the page, her mouth falls open, her heartbeat quickens. Her eyes dart across each typescript line at a rapid-fire pace, accelerating as she moves through the final paragraph, desperate to arrive at a revelation, to confirm her suspicions. She sucks in her breath, and holds that breath, for the last lines.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eIsabel stares at the final period, the little black dot of ink . . . staring . . . \u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eShe lets out her breath. “My God.” Astounded, at the enormity of the story. Disappointed, at the absence of the confirmation she was hoping for. Furious, at what it means. Terrified, at the dangers it presents. And, above all, heartbroken, at the immensity of the betrayal. Betrayals.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eShe puts the page down on the fat stack of paper that sits on the bedspread, next to a crumpled soft-pack of cigarettes and an overflowing crystal ashtray, a mildly snarky birthday present from a passive-aggressive colleague. She picks up the manuscript with both hands, flips it over, and uses her thumbs to align the pages. Her hands are trembling. She tries to steady herself with a deep breath, and sets the straightened pile of pages in her lap. There are four words centered at the top of the page:\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eThe Accident by Anonymous\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eIsabel stares across the room, off into the black nothingness of the picture window on the opposite wall, its severe surface barely softened by the half-drawn shades, an aggressive void invading the cocoon of her bedroom. The room is barely lit by a small bullet-shaped reading sconce mounted over the headboard, aiming a concentrated beam of light directly at her. In the window, the light’s reflection hovers above her face, like a tiny sun illuminating the top of her head, creating a halo. An angel. Except she’s not.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eShe can feel her body tense and her jaw tighten and her shoulders contract in a spasm of rage. She tries to suppress it, bites her lip, brings herself under the flimsiest tether of control.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eIsabel draws aside the bedspread, struggles to a sitting position. It’s been hours since she has shifted her body in any appreciable way, and her legs and back are stiff and achy--old, if she had to choose a word for her joints. Her legs dangle over the side of the mattress, her toes searching for the fleece-lined slippers.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eAlong the wall, long slivers of aluminum shelves--hundreds of horizontal feet--are filled with neat stacks of manuscripts, their authors’ names written with thick black Sharpie into the sides of the stacks of pages. Tens of thousands of pages of proposed books of every sort, promising a wide assortment of entertainment and information, produced with a broad range of skill levels.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eThese days, everyone younger than Isabel seems to read manuscripts and proposals on e-readers; quite a few of those older, too. But she feels uncomfortable, unnatural, sitting there holding a little device in her hands. Isabel is of the generation that’s just old enough to be congenitally uncomfortable with new technologies. When she started her first job, she didn’t have a computer at her desk. A year later, she did.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eMaybe next year she’ll start using one of those things, but for now she’s still reading on paper, turning pages, making notes with pens, surrounding herself with stacks of paper, like bricks, bunkered against the relentless onslaught of the future. And for The Accident, she didn’t even have a choice. Because although nearly all of new projects are now delivered to her office electronically, this submission was not.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eShe shuffles down the hall, through the darkness. Turns on the kitchen lights, and the coffee machine--switched from AUTO-ON, which is set to start brewing an hour from now, to ON--and the small television. Filling the silent lonely apartment with humming electronic life.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eIsabel had been reading frantically, hoping to discover the one assertion that rang untrue, the single mismatched thread that would unravel the whole narrative, growing increasingly discouraged as page 1 at the office in the morning became page two-hundred-something at home in the evening. She fell asleep sometime after eleven, more than halfway through, then woke again at two, unable to quiet her mind, anxious to get back to it. People in the book business are constantly claiming “I couldn’t put it down” or “it kept me up all night” or “I read it in one day.” This time, all that was true.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eSo at two a.m. Isabel picked up the manuscript and started reading again, page after page, through the late-late night. Vaguely reminiscent of those days when Tommy was an infant, and she was sleep-deprived, awake in a dormant world. They are very discrete periods, for very specific reasons, when it’s a normal part of life to be awake at four a.m.: it’s for making babies or caring for them, in the small desperate hours when a blanket of quiet smothers the city, but through the moth-eaten holes there’s the occasional lowing of a railroad in New Jersey, the distant Dopplered wail of an ambulance siren. Then the inevitable thump of the newspaper on the doormat, the end of the idea of night, even if it’s still dark out.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eNothing she encountered during the 488 pages seemed false. Now she stares at the anchor’s face on the television, tuned to Wolfe . . . That goddamned son of a bitch . . . \u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eHer anger swells, and she loses control--\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eIsabel cocks her arm and hurls the remote across the kitchen, cracking and splintering against the refrigerator door, clattering loudly to the floor. Then the heightened silence of the aftermath, the subdued thrum of a double-A battery rolling across the tile, the impotent click as it comes to rest against a baseboard.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eShe feels tears trickling down her cheek, and wipes them away.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eThe coffee machine hisses and sputters the final drops, big plops falling into the tempered glass. Isabel glances at the contraption’s clock, changing from 5:48 to 5:49, in the corner of the neatly organized counter, a study in right angles of brushed stainless steel. Isabel is a passionate proponent of perfect alignment. Fanatical, some might say.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eShe opens the refrigerator door, with its new scratch from the airborne remote, whose jagged pieces she kicks out of her way. She takes out the quart of skim and pours a splash into her mug. She grabs the plastic handle of the carafe and fills the mug with hot, viscous, bitter, bracing caffeination. She takes a small sip, then a larger one. She tops up the mug, and again wipes away tears.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eShe walks back down the now-lighted hall, lined with the family photographs she’d unearthed when she was moving out of her matrimonial apartment, into this single-woman space in a new neighborhood, far from the painful memories of her home--of her life--downtown, where she’d been running into too many mothers, often with their children. Women she’d known from the playgrounds and toy stores and mommy-and-me music classes, from the gyms and grocers and coffee shops, from preschool drop-off and the pediatrician’s waiting room. All those other little children growing older, getting bigger, Emmas and Stellas in precious little plaids, Ashers and Amoses with mops of messy curls in skinny jeans on scooters; all those self-satisfied downtown bobo parents, unabashedly proud of their progeny’s precociousness.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eShe’d bought herself a one-bedroom in a full-service uptown co-op, the type of apartment that a woman chooses when she becomes reconciled that she’s not going to be living with another human being. She had reached that age, that stage, when a lifestyle starts to look permanent: it is what it is, and ever will be, until you die. She was making her loneliness as comfortable as possible. Palliative care.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eIf she wasn’t allergic to cats, there’d probably be a couple of them lurking around, scrutinizing her disdainfully.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eIsabel lined this nice new hallway--parquet floors, ornate moldings, electrical outlets where she wants them--with framed photos. There she is, a smiling little toddler being held aloft by her tragically beautiful mother in Central Park, at the playground near the museum, a couple of blocks from the Classic 8 on Park Avenue that her parents couldn’t actually afford. And then hand-in-hand with her remarkably unambitious father, starting fourth grade at the small-town public school in the Hudson Valley, after they’d finally abandoned the city for their “country place,” the old family estate that they’d been selling off, half-acre parcels at a time, to pay for their life. Then in cap and gown, the high school valedictorian, bound not for Harvard or Yale or even a first-rate state school, but for a second-tier--maybe third?--private college upstate, because it offered a full scholarship, including room and board, and didn’t necessitate expensive out-of-state travel. The drive was just a few hours.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eHer parents had called her Belle; still do. But once she was old enough to understand what the word meant, she couldn’t bear to lay claim to it. She began to insist on Isabel.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eIsabel had intended to go to graduate school, to continue studying American literature, eventually to teach at the university level, maybe. But that plan was formed before she’d had an understanding of the realities of personal finance. She took what she thought would be a short-term job at a publishing house--one of her father’s school chums was a famous editor--with the irrational expectation that she’d be able to save money to pay for school, in a year, or two. She was buoyed by modest success in an enjoyable workplace during good business years, and one thing led to another. Plus she never saved a dime. By the time she was twenty-five, she no longer thought about grad school. Almost never.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eSo then there she is, in a little black dress on stage at a book-award ceremony, accepting on behalf of her author who was in South America at the time, chasing a new story. And in a big white dress, aglow, in the middle of the panoramic-lens group shot, the thirty-six-year-old bride with her bridesmaids, at her wedding to a man she’d started dating a mere eight months earlier, short on time, perfectly willing to turn a blind eye to his obvious faults, the personality traits that her friends were too supportive to point out, until the safe remove of hindsight.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eThat utter bastard.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eIt still amazes her how quickly youth slipped away, how severely her options narrowed. Just a couple of bad relationship decisions--one guy who as it turned out was never going to commit, another who was a closeted asshole--and the infinite choices of her late twenties turned into the dwindling selection of her mid-thirties, now saying yes to any non-creepy men who asked her out at parties or introduced themselves in bars, sometimes using her middle name if the guy was on the margins of acceptability and she might end up wanting to hide behind the unstalkable shield of an alias; over the years she’d had more than a few dates with men who thought her name was something else. Half the time, she was glad for the deception.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eAnother photo, a smaller print, lying in the hospital bed with Tommy in her arms, tiny and red and angry in his striped swaddling blanket and blue cap. Isabel returned to work after the standard three months, but in that quarter-year something had passed, and she was complacent to allow it. Her husband was suddenly making embarrassing amounts of money, so Isabel hired a housekeeper to go with the nanny. She started leading one of those enviable-looking lives--a four-day workweek, driving the shiny car from the pristine loft to the shingled beach house, a perfect baby and a rich handsome smart funny husband . . . \u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eAnd then.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eShe stops at the final photo, spotlit, a small black-and-white in the center of an expanse of stark-white matting. A little boy, laughing on a rocky beach, running out of the gentle surf, wearing water wings. Isabel reaches her hand to her lips, plants a kiss on her fingers, and transfers the kiss to the little boy. As she does every morning.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eIsabel continues to the bathroom, unbuttoning her flannel top as she walks, untying the drawstring of the pajama bottoms, which crumple as she releases the knot. She pushes her panties down and steps out of them, leaving a small, tight puddle of cotton on the floor.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eThe hot shower punishes her tense, tired shoulders. Steam billows in thick bursts, pulled out the bathroom door, spilling into the dressing area, the bedroom. The water fills her ears, drowning out any sounds of the television, of the world. If there’s anything else in her apartment making noise, she can’t hear it.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eWhat exactly is she going to do with this manuscript? She shakes water out of her hair, licks her top lip, shifts her hands, her feet, her weight, standing under the stream, distracted and disarmed, distressed. It all beats down on her, the shower stream and the manuscript and the boy and the past, and the old guilt plus the new guilt, and the new earth-shattering truths, and fear for her career and maybe, now, fear for her life.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eShe slips into a soft, thick white bathrobe, towel-dries her hair. She sweeps her hand across the steamed-up glass, and examines her tired eyes, bagged and bloodshot, wrinkled at the corners. The bathroom’s high-voltage lighting isn’t doing her any favors this morning. She had long ago become accustomed to not sleeping well, for a variety of reasons. But with each passing year, it has become harder and harder to hide the physical evidence of sleeplessness.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eFrom the other room, she can hear the irrelevant prattle of the so-called news, the piddling dramas of box-office grosses, petty marital indiscretions, celebrity substance abuse. Steam recolonizes the mirror, and she watches big thick drops of condensation streak down from the top beveled edge of the glass, cutting narrow paths of clarity through the fog, thin clear lines in which she can glimpse her reflection . . . \u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eSomething is different, and a jolt of nervous electricity shoots through her, a flash of an image, Hitchcockian terror. Something in that slim clear streak has changed. The light has shifted, there’s now a darkness, a shadow--\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eBut it’s nothing, she sees, just the reflection of the bedroom TV, more footage of yesterday’s international news, today. Today she has to consider the news in a whole new light. Now and forevermore.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eShe gets dressed, a sleek navy skirt suit over a crisp white blouse, low heels. The type of office attire for someone who wants to look good, without particularly caring about being fashionable. 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