An Endless Cycle of Evenings: A Novel

A messy, hopeful coming-of-age novel following a twenty‑something in Brooklyn as she spirals through grief and a dangerously tangled relationship with her boss and his wife

Carson, twenty‑five and reeling from her mother’s death, is coping the only way she knows how: with cheap wine and bars full of strangers. Her life is an endless cycle of evenings, blackout nights washing into hungover mornings—until she meets Jasper Stewart, a celebrated novelist who offers her a glimpse of the adult life she can’t quite figure out how to build for herself.

When Camille—an enviably self-possessed woman whose boys frequent the bookstore where Carson is underemployed—offers her a nannying job, Carson is pulled into a household that feels dangerously like home. It isn’t until after she’s already ensnared in their world that she realizes Camille is Jasper’s wife. As she is pulled closer to Jasper, what began as casual quickly evolves into a full-fledged affair, and Carson ricochets between loathing the enigmatic Camille and longing to be mothered by her. Add in a situationship with Arabelle, another nanny, and a growing dependence on alcohol, and Carson’s free fall through New York becomes impossible to ignore. As the lines between desire, grief, and self‑destruction blur, Carson must decide whether she can pull herself out of the spiral . . . or let the chaos of her twenties swallow her whole.

An Endless Cycle of Evenings is at once a tender, funny, and ultimately redemptive love letter to Brooklyn and a compassionate salute to the beautiful disasters of early adulthood.