{"product_id":"erase-me-isbn-9798217029631","title":"Erase Me","description":"\u003cb\u003eA struggling teen discovers solace in technology that lets him view the erased memories of others. As he delves into the past of another boy harboring a dark secret, he embarks on a thrilling journey that uncovers a love he was forced to forget. Perfect for fans of \u003ci\u003eThey Both Died at the End\u003c\/i\u003e.\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eSeventeen-year-old Eli was in a near-fatal car crash. As the anniversary looms, his therapist and his family struggle to help him deal with the fallout. The accident has left him emotionally numb, with no memory of the months following the crash. \u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eDesperate to feel something again, Eli discovers a black market for people’s memories. Erased memories that others can watch via a virtual reality simulation. \u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eWhen he enters the story of a boy called Jack, he discovers a dark truth…a mind-blowing secret that sets him on a dangerous journey that could lead his heart back to where it belongs, or shatter his life forever.★ \"The mystery at the core of the narrative is shrouded in layers of uncertainty, lies, and outright schemes that run a clear thread of tension from the first page to the last. \u003cb\u003eAn eerie piece of science fiction \u003c\/b\u003ewith an unsettling, yet hopeful, ending.\" —\u003ci\u003eBooklist\u003c\/i\u003e, starred review\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\"Traumatized teens navigate a labyrinth of betrayal, conspiracies, paranoia, and violence in this brutal psychological thriller....that\u003cb\u003e balances suffering with hope\u003c\/b\u003e.\" —\u003ci\u003ePublishers Weekly\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/i\u003e\"A smart, unpredictable, and \u003cb\u003eemotionally rich roller-coaster ride\u003c\/b\u003e.\"\u003ci\u003e —Kirkus Reviews\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/i\u003e\"[A] fast-paced, cinematic plot, providing readers with \u003cb\u003ean entry point for considering the importance of mental health\u003c\/b\u003e, recognizing trauma in their own lives, and seeking sources of support.\"\u003ci\u003e —The Horn Book\u003c\/i\u003eJosh Silver is the author of \u003ci\u003eHappyHead\u003c\/i\u003e, which was shortlisted for the YA Book Prize and nominated for the Carnegie Medal, its sequel, \u003ci\u003eDead Happy\u003c\/i\u003e, and \u003ci\u003eErase Me\u003c\/i\u003e. His experience working with teenagers as a mental health nurse inspired the critically acclaimed duology.1\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eMy Overwhelming Emptiness\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Could you repeat that please, Elias? I’m not sure I heard you correctly.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eShe heard me correctly. “I said, I think I’m a psychopath.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eI make the final word louder just so she’s perfectly clear.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“OK, Elias. That’s an interesting choice of words.” Melinda stares at me over the bridge of her glasses. “Why would you think that?”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“I overheard someone at work say I look like the kind of person that would shoot up a school.” Her face doesn’t move. She’s good at this. Very professional. “It got me thinking. What if I actually am that kind of person?”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eI don’t want to scare her. I like my therapist. I do. But she asked for the truth and I made a promise I’d give it to her.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“So you think you’re a psychopath because someone else said so?” She raises her eyebrows like I’m being childish. She always does that when she thinks I’m being . . . well, childish.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Yes. Exactly.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eIt’s OK, by the way. We understand one another. I hate her and she hates me, but we love each other really.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“But you have empathy and compassion.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eIf I do, I’m currently on the last dregs of it stuck here on this blue swivel chair. “Sociopath, then. Isn’t that the difference? The em­pathy part?”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“I’m pretty sure you’re neither.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eThat’s promising. My therapist is \u003ci\u003epretty\u003c\/i\u003e sure I’m neither a psycho­path nor a sociopath. No one really knows the difference between a psychopath and a sociopath. Well, I do, but that’s because I Google these things. Anyway, I digress.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“You don’t look convinced, Elias.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“The guy at work seemed pretty convinced.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eShe frowns her thinking frown. “Is he the one who pushed your head in the toilet while you were cleaning it?”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“No. Different one.” Different one, Melinda. Stay sharp.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“OK, let’s see. If you’re worried”—­I’m not worried—­“let’s go through the psychopath checklist.” Oh fun. “Do you pretend to feel emotions?”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“No. I just don’t have them.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eShe raises her eyebrows again. “Elias.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Yes, Melinda.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“You do have them.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eNever. “Sporadically.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“I think you’re referring to the overwhelming emptiness we’ve been working through.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eI didn’t name it that, by the way. She did and now it’s stuck. Me and my Overwhelming Emptiness meet with her every Thursday at seven p.m. for fifty minutes, annoy the living shit out of her, then leave. “Maybe.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“We’ve spoken about this.” Melinda is right. We have spoken about this. We’ve spent forty-­three hours speaking about it, to be precise. Every week for ten whole months. But the Overwhelming Emptiness has gone nowhere and all I’ve managed to gain is a more profound knowledge of its existence. “You are making progress. And it’s completely normal for you to feel this way after what happened to you.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“If you say so.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Are you cold and ruthless?”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eHmm. Is feeling \u003ci\u003enothing\u003c\/i\u003e cold? I’ll go with yes. I know that ruth­less is going to happen at some point soon too. You’ll see.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“I live at home with my mom and dad. I love cats.” I’m a cat person. Don’t fuck with cats. “That doesn’t really scream \u003ci\u003eI’m gonna slit your throat,\u003c\/i\u003e does it?”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“No.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Could all be a guise, though, Melinda.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“I highly doubt it. And not all psychopaths slit people’s throats.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“That’s true.” Told you she was good.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Are you intent on becoming successful at the expense of others?”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“I work in a café cleaning the bathrooms because I failed all three of my final exams.” I put my thumb up. “So, a firm no to that one.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eOkay, fine. I passed one of them. But it was art, which isn’t a \u003ci\u003epro­per subject\u003c\/i\u003e.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Next question, Elias. Are you dishonest?” I mean . . . “I’ll answer that. You’re not. You are very honest. Bravely so.” I like that she thinks that. “Do you try and copy emotions? Imitate them?”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“I . . .”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eThat’s a weird one. Because since it happened—­the reason I’m here—­I can’t remember how to feel emotions. Instinctively, anyway. I try to summon them, I do. I worry the summoning part is the psychopathic part. Well, no, I don’t \u003ci\u003eworry,\u003c\/i\u003e because I can’t. But I think about it often. Ponder, if you will. \u003ci\u003eMuse on it.\u003c\/i\u003e Sorry. Rambling. Shh, brain.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eI should really tell her all this. That would be the honest thing to do. “No, I don’t.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“And you’re not outwardly charming.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Wow. OK.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“You’re \u003ci\u003egenuinely\u003c\/i\u003e charming.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eShe then looks sad, like she really cares about me. I hate it when she does that. “So no, Elias, you’re not a psychopath or a sociopath.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“I dream about murdering people.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eShe pauses. “Elias.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“What?”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“I can’t tell if you’re joking again.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eAgain? Oh, she thinks I was \u003ci\u003ejoking\u003c\/i\u003e about the psychopath thing. It’s probably better that way.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eI am joking now, though. I just want to rattle her a bit. Shake up the session in the closing minutes. I can see by the clock on the wall there are only five minutes left, but the last five are always the worst, so I’m hoping she’ll just end it. Not all of time and humanity, just the session. (Although that would be interesting.) You get what I mean.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“We’ve spoken a lot about your dreams.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eDamn it. “We have.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“And there’s no murder in them.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“No. I was making a bad joke.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Right. Good one.” She puts \u003ci\u003eher\u003c\/i\u003e thumb up this time. “OK, so can we be serious now?” Melinda closes her notebook, clicks her pen, and places it neatly into the pocket of her blazer.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eOh, she’s ready. She’s ready to get serious.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Potentially.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“There’s six minutes left.” Five. \u003ci\u003eFive\u003c\/i\u003e left. “And I want to know how your symptoms have been this week.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eI exhale. “It’s been getting better. The nightmares aren’t as bad. The pain is less frequent. The headaches aren’t making me feel as sick as they used to. I’ve woken up feeling more positive and I’m screaming less.” I hope that didn’t sound too robotic.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“The screaming at night, you mean?”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eYes, Melinda. “Less dreaming, less screaming.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Well, that’s great. Really great, Elias. And the emptiness?”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“It’s less.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Great. Good. And what about the feeling you’ve described as \u003ci\u003emissing something\u003c\/i\u003e. You’ve often spoken about it as a sort of inexplicable \u003ci\u003elonging\u003c\/i\u003e?”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Yeah.” That’s the worst one. “It’s getting better now.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“It will go fully with time.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eI nod to make her think I believe her.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“And your memory? Is it becoming clearer? Solidifying?”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eI blink. “Yes.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“That’s wonderful. Remember, everyone is safe and everyone is well.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“They are.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Are you keeping up with your therapy exercises?”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“I am. They’re helping.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eShe wrinkles her nose like she’s very pleased and very proud. “Good. How’s Lucas?”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eMy older brother. Home from uni for the Christmas break. “He’s good. Going to hang out with him tonight.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“To tell him how awful this has been?”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“You read my mind.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“God, I would hate to do that.” She grins. “Right, well. See you tomorrow, Elias.” I scrunch up my face. \u003ci\u003eTomorrow?\u003c\/i\u003e “It’s going to be a year since the date of the Incident.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eThe Incident. She loves referring to it as that. Wait, \u003ci\u003ewhat?\u003c\/i\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Yeah. I know.” But I didn’t know. I’d actually forgotten. Or blocked it out, probably.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Good. So, as I told you, it’s a group session.” Oh holy hell. “With Mum and Dad.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eIt makes me feel weird when she calls them that, like they’re her mum and dad too. “Can you call them something else?”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Right. Sorry. With Mr. and Mrs. Pew.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“OK, but no. That’s too formal. Like we’re going to have a business lunch about my trauma.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eShe doesn’t smile this time. Probably because she knows that’s exactly what we’re going to be doing. “I’ll just call them—­”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“My parents. Yep. My parents will be there. Got it.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“It’s a home visit. So, if you’ll remind them, I’ll be at your house at ten a.m.?”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Does it have to be?”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“At ten?”","brand":"Delacorte Press","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":48233147957477,"sku":"NP9798217029631","price":19.99,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":false}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/1842\/7735\/files\/9798217029631.jpg?v=1767726330","url":"https:\/\/k12savings.com\/es\/products\/erase-me-isbn-9798217029631","provider":"K12savings","version":"1.0","type":"link"}